Day 162 self portrait or not to self portrait??

8x10 oils on canvas "self portrait"

So, I do not do these often, or even rarely. When I actually try, I get frustrated and give up. Or, they are abstract or surreal or anything else.
Why?
Because who sees themselves the way the rest of the world does?

How did I do?

Nite,
Valerie

Disclaimer or Excuse (whichever works):
With the interruption of my recent family crisis, I am struggling to find my rhythm. So, the the last few pieces have been all over the place. I am pushing, and hopefully will work through this.